seems that there is no end 2 their need 2 take. i grew up with a very large family and after watching my mother
spread herself thin in so many different ways 2 give 2 others i learned then how not 2 be selfish or self centered.
having such upbringing makes it easy 2 give it's like a part of my makeup. it is a struggle however 4 me 2 give up
on a person who comes into my life. i ask myself why do i do what i do for people and i am still waiting 4 the answer.
funny how the system seems 2 work. history just keeps on repeating....the same issues our ancestors dealt with is the
same issues we deal with today. just with a little more luxuries and pleasures along with less work or in some cases
more work.
now that i am a mother of 3 i have been consistently reminding them that there are some things i went through so they
didn't have 2...well if they heed my loving advice they don't...my focus is on my princess at the moment who is just grown up
and is about 2 venture out into the world...i am constantly saying treat people how u want 2 be treated...even when they aren't good
2 u...those words can sometimes be like gravel rolling out of my mouth...because even though it is the right thing 2 do
hope can be deferred and make the heart sick.. waiting on a person that u have invested in 2 change can become
weary...not because u don't love them anymore or that u want them out of your life. but simply because u would like 2 hope
that somewhere u did right by that person and would love 2 see the fruit of it...i only speak 4 myself of course. i am still waiting
on some of the time i've invested in the people in my life 2 pay off or produce some fruit...it's amazing how u can give out so much and
get back so little. sometimes not even a third of what u gave..or how u can go the extra mile 2 help someone and they still crap on u...
it is even harder when u know that u should let a person go and move on but u keep hoping and hoping 4 the best and that best
just never seem 2 come. and just when u get ready 2 throw in the towel and break free u hear someone saying how they waited 25 years
for a person 2 do this or that and they finally did it and this is the kicker. they say how it was worth the wait! can't say if i would be so
happy after 25 years of waiting...but then i can't say i wouldn't be either. maybe it depends on the person u are waiting on. so here i am
still waiting on some of the fruit of my labor...because i know my labor is not in vain...still waiting on change....knowing it may never come.
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