Wednesday, August 17, 2011
The Memories of a Mother......
As of woman of 35 i have been blessed 2 be a mother for 18years now. i have 3 wonderful children and i thank God everyday for those 3 blessings...They are apart of me....as they grow older and are getting ready 2 leave home soon and start their own lives...I think of each and everyone of them differently because they all are...I remember every pregnancy and delivery. i even remember all the crazy things they would say when they really started learning how 2 talk with a real vocabulary. just the other day we broke out the VHS and watched them all on tape when they were still toddling around. it was funny 2 have their little voices on tape...u know what they sounded like b4 puberty? Too funny.... i could listen 2 it a dozen times and never get tired of it...It amazes me how far each of them have come and how i can catch myself getting emotional at times at the thought of something happening 2 any of them...I know i should never think those kind of thoughts...and i kick them out when they do come, but i have 2 tell u i really can't see life without any of them...I have one that is so on top of things at times that she can drive u 2 be on top of it all and u don't even realize ur doing it until your done! then i have one who is so laid back and mellow that he keeps me calm in my storms of life! then i have one that is so creative and bizzy that i never know what he's going 2 make next or how long my batteries will last in the house from one of his creations! Yes i think 2 be a mother is one of the most amazing gifts on the face of this earth...no one gets the special experiences a mother gets. no teacher, pastor, grandparent, friend, or even their dads don't get it...We get 2 carry that little being around everywhere we go 4 nine months (if their is no complications), the bonding starts way before birth....mine always begin when they started 2 move...their first spin or flip inside of me or that first kick was when i begin talking 2 them personally...and what is so much more amazing is that even though they are floating around in water inside u they still know their mother's voice and even her sent...it use 2 irritate me when my babies would be doing good with their dad or someone else until i walked in the room...sometimes i wouldn't even say a word they would start looking around the room trying 2 spot me! or how about this one? when u pick them up from the babysitter they would say "they were fine til u walked in"... I would give them the look and still to this day they cringe at that look! I never had 2 say a word. but even though it irritated me 2 hear those words at times or just when i thought i was going 2 get a break from them they would come calling 4 me with a scream or by yelling MOMMY! i learned that perfect love cast out all fear through my babies... they trust me 2 love them no matter what and with no conditions..Even when i am upset with them they know that i love them cuz they still get the LOOK! The memories i hold in my heart 4 my babies are moments that no camera can hold still...the love i have 4 them no one knows the magnitude of it...and the dreams i have 4 them no one is the bigger cheerleader then i am....The Memories of a Mother they last forever....This is dedicated 2: Antonia, Tichun, and Keion...My Tribe...My Loves....My Blessings...U 3 are the best of Me!
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I only recently was able to friend you, and this is the first blog entry of yours I have read. But as a man expecting a chile in a month and a half. I want my girl to read this.
ReplyDeleteI usually avoid adding my frineds kids to FB. Mostly because while I'm usually pretty PG13. I can get a bit adult at times on my feed. I have Destiny as a friend, but not Jayden. I thought long and hard before I accepted her request. I wanted to add Tony, because I still remember having that adorable little 4 year old screaming kalcker klacker and shaking her head and making the beautiful beads she used to put in her hair clack. I remember muscley little Tishon before he could walk, and I remember when Keon was born, but I never really knew him after that, and it BLOWS ME AWAY to see them all growed up now. I didn't add Tony, because she wouldn't even know who the hell I am. But my memory of her made me really want to, even if I'm the only one of the two of us who does. I've been hunitng for you and keith for a few years now on FB, and I'm glad to finnaly have you as my FB friend. You may nevcer hear from me on it. But I like knowing I can say hello Paulette, you are looking so beautiful these days if I wanted to. Really darling, you haven't aged a day, and I don't actually remember the last time I saw you in person. I hope to browse your blog more in the future.
Stacey Lee
Paulette this is so very true I remember like it was yesterday talking about fears of motherhood and my denial of being pregnant with Destiny until I finally took the test. Remembering Antonia asking you for a sister! All of our children are growing into wonderful people. We've done a good job as mothers I want you to know how thankful I am for you and all the rest of the family and to thank you for being there when I needed little more guidance.
ReplyDeleteLove Always
Tulene