Not because of majorly bad things that happened 2 me during this year, but simply because I am ready 2 keep pressing forward...I have
lost some people in my life that I thought loved me...not to physical death because then that would have made losing them a little easier 2 handle
but I guess you could say their season was up in my life...Of course we all know that when that happens your never really quite ready for that
FINAL goodbye...However you know it must come...I've watched my children be attacked through the words and accusations of others...and yeah
I know I'll never get away from that part of life but it still doesn't make it hurt any less...I've allowed some people back into my life who sadly 2 say
just may not be able 2 remain there...Relationships right??? the joys of them all....I can't sit here and tell anyone that I haven't said or done wrong
things...all I can say is that my heart is pure...when I give someone advice as 2 what not 2 do, it surely isn't me thinking I know it all...No it's my way of
warning you not 2 do it because I've been there and I just don't want YOU 2 have 2 endure the pain of it....It's funny though seems like the more
you tell someone not 2 do something, the more they go towards it...I too have had my part in that role once before...Yet I won't be walking that road
again if I can help it...This year I've had 2 let some thing go....because holding on to them just isn't healthy...I watch tv and WOW! is all I can say.
Every year it gets worse and worse....Not even worth the money we spend on it....The News is never good it's almost always bad...which is why I choose
not 2 watch it...There are some of you however that watch it like you should be watching for the return of Christ.... But who am I 2 tell anyone what
they should be doing? My intent is never 2 hurt or harm only 2 love, help, and support if it is the right thing 2 do at the time...Do I think people or our
world here is perfect you may ask?? No would be my answer...Yet there comes a time when you have 2 put the childish things away...For example I have
watched countless relationships lost, all because someone came up with the bright idea that 2 people should live together first, just 2 make sure they know
that person is the one...well if you haven't figured it out by now that is simply role playing and not the real thing! I mean why commit when you can get all
the same benefits without it? Trust me I did the whole role playing thing but it didn't take long before I realized I was worth more then just passing the time.
Believe me I know that marriage is no easy relationship...I actually believe it is the hardest one of all...If you think about it being someone's friend can be a
breeze, being a parent is easy meaning the child is apart of You, being a teacher is a struggle but can be tolerated cause if you get a bad student you know
that you only have 2 put up with them for 1 year and they're gone, being a sister or a brother that one you can't get out of it is in your blood no matter how
you want 2 slice it... Yet marriage you have 2 work at it...it can be labor! especially now days...you have porn right at your finger tips this one can be a battle.
Then you have the other people out there scoping you both out wanting what they think you have....Coveting is what it's called I do believe...You have people
who have kids of their past and have completely stepped out of the responsibility of it, and it is somehow always the other parent's fault. you know the one who
kept the child, raised it, and had 2 move on cause they had no choice....It always seems 2 be that parent's fault that they didn't do their part as a parent....I have
been mocked and made fun of because of my beliefs, the way I parent my children, and the things I put up with in my marriage and oh yes wouldn't you know it
even my skin color....you would think that people would have grown out of the whole race thing but that is something I get 2 carry with me into the New Year and
the year after that and the year after that it will follow me all of my days! Now I say BRING IT ON! I'm waging WAR....some of you out there just may want 2 handle
me with care....I've had a lot of disappointments this year and I am ready 2 put them all behind me and move on 2 my new beginnings cause I know that 2012 has
2 be much better then 2011...So goodbye 2011 you have been a fair weathered friend 2 me and Hello 2012 cause this year and every year after is my YEAR!
Happy New Year everyone...Have a blessed start and let no one tell you that you were a mistake, Cause God is too wise 2 make a mistake....You were meant 2 be here
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