For My Good

A few days ago I decided 2 actually listen 2 the song "For My Good" by the christian rapper Triplee....Now before u run 2 youtube and look him up be reminded that he is a rapper...I know that there are some out there who will shut a song off because they don't like the style of music...I say that because I use 2 be anti-rap for many years but now I know that sometimes the message hidden in the song is much more valuable then the style of it... I can honestly tell u that I have heard this song several times before but would skip it over because I didn't like the style of it....However because I really enjoy music and always have, God sometimes speaks 2 me in a song...Just weeks before I actually took the time 2 listen 2 the words of the song, I was just asking God: "How was what I was going through right now going 2 work out for my good according 2 Romans 8:28?" I know in this day and time some don't like 2 admit that they talk 2 God but not me...I talk 2 Him daily... If I didn't I may not be in my right mind today cause let's face it: we can be a friend but we don't always relate 2 a persons struggles. In fact if u haven't been through what they are going through at that moment u can't relate. U can't give what u don't have....After listening 2 the words of the song "For My Good" I was taken on a journey to my past....I realized that most of the awful things that have happened 2 me has literally worked out "For My Good". Which in turn gave me a hope that what I was going through right now was going 2 work out (dare I confidently say "For My Good?). I have actually at this present time been dealing with issues of rejection....I know we all deal with things differently...But I still sometimes try 2 process in my mind how rejection come about....I just don't understand it like most... Some people can let it roll off of them like water and keep their heads up. Not me.....2 me rejection is like Divorce...or as though the person who is or has rejected u is spitting u out...I know that I have even done it 2 people myself..... Still I don't get it! I've experienced it most of my life and I am sure some of u out there have as well...In fact I am certain all of u have experienced rejection at some point in ur lives...My question is how does it happen? I am still trying 2 figure out what it is about me that can sometimes intimidates a person...I know that not everyone is for me or meant 2 be in my life...But when u have been in a place for years surrounded by some of the same people for years and they can still spit u out how do u process that? Like I said I don't get it! I know that we are 2 protect ourselves from those that aren't good for us but how about when they aren't a threat 2 u and u have done ur best 2 be a person of love 2 them and still they spit u out? I tell u it just doesn't seem 2 be registering in my mind...Can anybody out there relate 2 my suffering? I can say that I know even this 2 will pass and work out "For My Good" but it doesn't take away the pain while I am going through the process of it...My prayer is that while I am going through it, that I come out GOLD!  and that I never allow the wounds of another cause me 2 retaliate in return...Because everything reproduces after it's kind...I don't want 2 be one who rejects a person who needs 2 feel loved and accepted cause I never know when I will need 2 be loved and accepted...I don't want 2 be one who makes a person feel as though they don't belong because I know every one belongs somewhere. I don't want 2 be the person who blows up and takes things out on others cause something isn't going my way cause I don't like it when it happens 2 me...No....I want a heart like God...One who loves with the foreknowledge that people are going 2 hurt me no matter what I do or say...I am waiting for this 2 work out "For My Good!"