Hello All! especially those who have been sticking out this thing called life with me! :) Hold on to your seats this one just may get deep... as u already know this is Just "My" Passion... which means u may not agree but then again your not me...
So here I am haven't been able to sleep...thinking of how people always seem to see me as a STRONG woman.I can't imagine where that title for me even came about other then the lifestyle I have had to live for almost 17yrs now..See I am a mother of 3, a wife, a daughter, a friend, an aunt, a cousin and sometimes a complete mess! Go ahead u can laugh at that one cause I know u didn't see it coming... As I look back at my childhood I am reminded of my mother Clara Bell Wilburn who was laid to rest on Oct. 31, 1994..If any one deserves the title of being a STRONG woman it would be her..She was a single mother of 9 children...I have only 3..the reason I have only the 3 is because watching my mother trying to distribute herself among all 9 of us kids showed me that one person just can't do it all...So I wanted to be able to have relationship with my kids..My mother had too many to really get up close and personal with us all...I guess u can say by watching her strength and her ability to not lose it and go postal on all of us is what may have inspired me to be STRONG...Now I can't say as I like the title of being STRONG because sometimes the people that view me in this way can sometimes forget that I have a heart and that I am human.. Though I can be STRONG doesn't mean that I don't want someone to see me for the woman that I am flaws and all...Now don't misunderstand me. I do have some in my life that can see right through me. However that is only because they have proven faithful to the things of my heart..There is a cost of being STRONG...when people view u in this manner they can't take your tears and I don't like my tears to be exposed to anyone who doesn't view me as special..so if u haven't seen me cry that should tell u something. They can't handle it when u get irritated (sometimes this can't be hidden)...they expect u to be able to handle just about anything that comes your way like a breeze..they can't even take it when u say "I need u" cause your suppose to be the STRONG one! As u can see being the STRONG one isn't all it's talked up to be...Sometimes I would like it if someone would say how are u? and mean it without dumping their garbage on me or their high expectations of how I should be or react to things. Oh yes being STRONG for others sometimes gives them the excuse 2 be lazy and not carry their own load.. I know we all need each other but let's face the facts one person just can't do it all. It really doesn't matter if they are STRONG or not...So the next time u find yourself telling someone they are STRONG put yourself in their shoes. A relationship isn't about just one person doing it all...Oh yes ask yourself can I handle The Cost Of Being STRONG?
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